Your Feelings Are Not Bullshit

I hate confrontation. But not because I want to avoid the truth.

I hate it because I am easily swayed in other directions. I am easily convinced out of my own feelings, regardless of how strong they are.

One right sentence from the right person and I start questioning if my feelings are valid.

This has been my story for 35 years.

I’m usually the first one to show up smiling, tuck my opinions aside, and do everything to keep the peace for others while there is a war raging inside of me.

And then weeks later, I explode. Feelings that are left undealt with resurface and I find myself alone, crying in a corner. Because all that matters is that everyone else around me is comfortable.

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But then one day you ask yourself, are these feelings real? Yes!

And that’s when you realize, whether you are right or wrong doesn’t matter. What matters is that your feelings are valid. They matter. They’re real.

You don’t have to spend days over analyzing them, questioning them, or pushing them aside in expense for anyone else.

There’s a big difference in being mean and standing up for yourself or someone else.

When you make others uncomfortable, when you speak up or call them out on their lies, they WILL try and manipulate your perception. They will try and have you questioning yourself.

And sometimes that’s okay. Sometimes it’s needed. Sometimes it takes someone else to talk sense into a situation.

But don’t ever, not for a second, question your feelings. They are there to protect you. To help you learn. To help you grow. To direct you. They are YOUR feelings & they are just as valid as anyone else’s.

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The One About Giving

A couple weeks ago I was entering a store with my kids and held the first door open for the person behind me. When they got to the second set of doors they didn’t bother to hold it open for me and my kids.

My oldest turned to me and said, “Mom, doesn’t that make you mad?”

What I wanted to answer was, “Yeah, some people can be dicks, eh?” But that didn’t seem the appropriate response to a ten-year-old. So I simply said, “Yeah, but not everyone thinks the same way.”

24 hours later this was still on my mind, and as I was housecleaning I kept thinking, why does it bug me so much?

I have always enjoyed helping people. I think giving brings me more joy than the person I am giving to, honestly.

However, we live in a day and age now where giving is sorta tied to expectation. That, if you give to someone the idea is that they are suppose to be willing to give back as well. And that if they don’t, they are using you. That if you give to someone and they fail to give back, you are a complacent doormat.

Throughout my life I have been told this, taught this, and shown this. Taught to be careful who I give to because not everyone is as generous giving back.

I held the door open that day for that person for two reasons.

  1. Because doing good makes me feel good.
  2. Because my kids were with me and I was trying to lead by example.

Obviously, it hurts when you show kindness and others are not so willing to show it back. But the true meaning of giving is the opposite of expectation. We’re not suppose to give with the intent on getting back. Giving is suppose to be flawless.

In saying this, I realize there are fine lines when it comes to giving and being a doormat. If you’re giving and it’s hurting or harming you or people close to you in any way, then maybe it is time to question that particular act of kindness. Because let’s face it, some people will abuse your generosity.

I have a perfect life. I have two healthy kids I am so proud to call my own. I have a husband who loves me more than I could ever love myself. I have a beautiful apartment I call home. My family is wealthy & healthy. There is no gray zone where I feel I/we are lacking anything.

I have to believe that when I give, I send out an energy that boomerangs right back. It may not be the person I am giving to that returns the kindness, but I believe the Universe does.

Have you ever done something nice for someone and then out of no where you get amazing news or an unexpected compliment that changes your day or a stranger buys you coffee?

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I do believe in the law of attraction. And while I don’t think we should attach expectation to giving, I do believe that good things happen when we are open to being kind.

I think teaching one another that, “If you give and this person doesn’t give back, then you should never give to them again.” is the kind of thinking and teaching that turns us bitter.

Yes, be careful not to let others abuse your kindness. But don’t stop being kind because someone didn’t return the kindness.

Maybe the person I held the door open for that day was in a rush for good reason. Maybe they didn’t think and later realized. Maybe they were about to shit their pants and needed a toilet urgently lol. Who knows?

What matters is that kindness was omitted into the Universe. What matters is that my kids will not hesitate (hopefully) to open doors for people. What matters is that others saw this and maybe were inspired to be kind as well that day.

When you give, give. Give with your whole heart. Give because you love it. Give because you’re making a difference.

There will always be assholes in the world who are greedy sons of bitches and refuse to show kindness to anyone. There will always be people who only care about themselves. There will always be people ready to abuse kindness.

Don’t let that stop you.

Because on the other hand, there will always be people who will remember you for your kindness. There will always be people who do appreciate kind gestures. There will always be good people who decide to give back.

You are not a doormat for wanting to help people. Don’t let this world make you hard. Keep that heart of gold and believe that genuine giving, genuine kindness, still makes one hell of a difference.

~Tanya

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Dear Life: Slow Down

Hey guys, one sec…just made a cup of coffee and have to go get it.

Okay, all set.

In case you haven’t noticed, this is a coffee friendly blog and I welcome, even encourage, coffee drinking while reading (or anytime. There’s never a bad time for coffee, is there?).

 

I haven’t been able to sit down and blog for a week now due to the flu hitting our home. My boys were home sick for the entire week and then the husband caught it on the weekend. Thankfully, mama bear managed to come out of this apocalypse without even a sniffle this time!

By the way, we watched a lot of Netflix & Prime Video during this time and for all of my Grey’s Anatomy fans out there, I would highly suggest the show The Night Shift. In fact, dare I say, I am vibing more with that show than Grey’s right now (sorry Shonda!). Also, I watched an episode of Black Mirror last night and wow, that show is fucked right up.

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But anyways…

I wanted to blog about this super cool chick I found on YouTube. Her name is Carrie L Johnson (This is her channel) and her videos are mostly about creating & living a simple life.

I’ll be honest with you, I don’t know if it’s SAD (seasonal Affective Disorder) or what, but I have been feeling like I’m running on a hamster wheel lately.

But because I seem so collected physically, I pay for it mentally & emotionally. There’s a lot of anxiety & over-thinking that goes on in this brain of mine. Thus, I tend to burnout fast.

When I found Carrie Johnson’s channel it’s like the Universe knew just what I needed. She is like my sister from another mister. She’s very honest about dealing with anxiety and stuff like that, which is so fucking refreshing to have some honesty online. So rare!

Anyways, her channel is mostly simple living tips and lately I have been needing to get into the slow lane. I’m so thankful for her videos and I encourage you to check out her out.

I’m not big on New Years Resolutions, so I didn’t bother to make one this year. But I am big on listening to your gut and mine is telling me I need to slow shit down or I am going to burnout again and again.

So I’ve decided what I want for 2020: A Refresher.

A more Hygge based year (if you aren’t familiar with Hygge, check it out on Pinterest). More yoga, meditation, reading. Less time on wasted scrolling through social media. More journaling & blogging. More time with nature (as long as there are no bees around!). More time sitting in silence or drinking coffee while reading a good book. More time making lunch dates and coffee dates with people.

Everything’s become about the hustle. Where are the books, guru’s, and conferences that encourage slowing down and simply enjoying life?

For once, I want to see what happens if I go against the current.

I’ll be updating my Instagram (@ mizztanjo) and blogging about it.

Feel free to join me! Or just follow my stories and updates.

Much love you guys,

Tanya

 

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MOMS! How To Stop Worrying About Your Life Purpose.

Hello Sunshine! If you are just seeing this, don’t click on it until you have gone and made yourself a nice hot coffee!

See, isn’t that better? 🙂

Hey! Welcome to the coffee drinkers hot spot. My name is Tanya (for those of you who don’t follow me on FB or Insta) and I am an awesome mom of two awesome kids. Yeah, I said it, I’m not downgrading my mommying skills to make others feel better or worse. You shouldn’t either.

So today I wanted to give a shout out to other mama’s out there who might be going through what I have been going through this lately. Which is, knowing what your purpose is here on Earth. Or at least finding something that gives you a sense of purpose.

Now, I wrote about this a couple times this week, but they were general blog posts directed at anyone and everyone. The reason I wanted to give a shout out to all my mommy friends today is because I am a stay at home mom and I know first hand how much mom’s lose of themselves after having kids.

We barely give ourselves enough time to eat a meal sitting down, let alone serving this grand purpose in life apart from being a mom and maybe going to work (not all of us are stay at home moms, that’s cool too).

I am a huge believer in Law Of Attraction and the Universe. I believe our thoughts become things. And today while making myself a lunch (that I actually sat down to eat…yay!) I got a notification on my phone.

Leeor Alexandra, one of my all-time favorite YouTuber’s, had just posted a video and it was called, STOP Worrying About Finding Your Purpose.

So this blog post is inspired by some of the things she said in her video. I highly suggest you check her out!

Anyways…

So I get this notification and I immediately feel that this is the Universe talking to me through her. And as she’s speaking, the one thing that spoke to me the most was how she said it’s not always about finding your “life” purpose as much as it’s about deciding what you want to do right now.

AMEN Sister!!

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Sometimes we (and by we I mean me haha) feel like we have to decide what it is we wanna do for the rest of our lives. And that can be a tough choice because who’s to say what you love doing now is what you will love doing in 5 years? If it, then great! But realistically not too many people even want one “purpose” forever.

If you’re a mom, like me, and have children who are not yet fully independent teenagers, then chances are you already have your hands full. If you’re a stay at home mom on top of that, then you’re probably not just busy with the kids but also taking on full responsibility of the homefront. Which is a much bigger job than a lot of people think, right?

So, hands are quite full but you’re feeling like folding laundry and wiping bums is not quite what you had in mind as a life purpose. Don’t worry, kids do grow up and you won’t have to be wiping their asses forever (hopefully). This is just a small part of your life, moms. Enjoy it.

With that said, all I want to encourage you to do is to find something that lights you on fire right now. Maybe it’s nothing. Maybe you are busy enough and content enough doing the mom gig for now. And if that’s it, good for you! Own your title mama. However, if you are looking for more, if you have a hunger in your bones for more, then just find something you love doing and do that for awhile. It doesn’t have to be something you do forever either. Maybe you pick up a hobby and it lasts until your kids get a bit older and then you move onto something else.

What would be the point of life it it was just to come here, do one thing, end of story? We’re living on a playground! There is SO much to see, explore, & learn! So what if you take a class for a year and then the passion wears off and you look for something else.

If you’re feeling lost, stagnant, or miserable, then I urge you to pick something. I’ll never forget what one of my bosses told me when I was taking theatre classes. He said, just choose a path. It doesn’t have to be the right path, it just has to be a path.

Go open an ETSY store for the hell of it and sell stuff you make. Even if your mom is the only one who buys anything, who cares. Go start a YouTube channel if you’ve got things to say. Who cares if you only get 5 subscribers. Go sign up for an MLM comapany and work from home doing what you are passionate about. Who cares if you get rich or not.

And in closing, I want to add that you do not have to be the next Rachel Hollis!! Unless that’s your dream, then run mama, run! Go after it. Personally, I hope to never stand in front of 5000+ people and have to deliver 2 hours worth of material. I’m more of a behind-the-scenes gal myself.

But it’s just to say, and I do plan on writing an entire book on this one day, that you don’t have to be famous to matter. If that’s the direction life pulls you towards then great! But don’t wake up every morning and go to bed every night feeling like a failure because you’re “just a mom” or “just a Walmart employee”.

Be where you are right now and don’t worry about 5 years from now. Hell, don’t even worry about 6 months from now. All you truly have is today. So live the hell out it. *Insert fist bump emoji here*

Have a great Thursday,

Tanya

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Living without a Purpose Pt. 2

Hey Boo!

If you’re not sitting down with a coffee right now, go make a coffee and then read this.

So yesterday I wrote about being a stay at home mom and how some mom’s, including yours truly, sometimes feel guilty for not having this much bigger life filled with glitter, sparkles, rainbows, and 25,000 thousand followers on Insta.

And then I had a thought afterwards and I wanted to share it here with you guys. Well, especially with the mama’s who felt my vibes yesterday!

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Here it is:

What if you decided to live your life not worrying or caring about a purpose?
What if you said, “hell with it, this is fun, let’s run with it.” without giving the outcome a second thought?

If you’re reading this, I am going to assume you are no stranger to me. That you know I coached Beachbody & was an Avon rep for awhile.

What you don’t know is that I gave up both simply because I was WAYYY too focused on the outcome and it stressed me the flip out!

So yesterday, after blogging about living with a purpose, I had an ah ha moment where I realized that’s where so many of us start off wrong.

You don’t have to have a single clue on how to get started or how it will end, you just have to want it and make sure whatever it is, it makes you happy.

Not everything in life has to have some immeasurable meaning or purpose. At the end of the day it’s just about compiling a bunch of happy moments that lead to your own extraordinary life.

 

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If Only Laundry Were A Life Purpose

There are about ten things I could name if you were to ask me what I had wanted to be when I grew up.

Housekeeper was not one of them. But that, at the moment, is my main job title. Stay at home mom/housekeeper.

Everyday I sweep, wash dishes (because I’m old fashioned and refuse to get a dishwasher), fold laundry, cook dinner, tend to school lunches, do homework with my youngest (probably the job I dread the MOST!), among other stay at home mom/housekeeper duties.

I love my “job”. I love my title.

But, like many other women and/or mama’s out there, I struggle with knowing my life purpose. I’m in my 30’s and still trying to figure out what the bigger picture is. Because that’s kinda what we’re told to chase, right? A big life and a purpose. Go big or go home.

So why don’t I know what the hell I wanna do in my 30’s?? Shouldn’t I? It’s so unfair that there are some teenagers out there making millions off their dreams, or in the very least off their YouTube channels.

And yet, here I am, folding laundry.

If only laundry were a life purpose.

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To be honest, I am perfectly happy with a small quiet life. The occasional dinner party or drinks and playing cards with friends. That makes me happy. But there is this guilt that constantly eats at me for not having big goals. Like, somehow I am less of a woman for 1. not working, and 2. not having a dream.

Unless watching Netflix & drinking wine is a goal? No? I didn’t think so.

I’m a mom of two incredible, not-so-little, boys. They are my whole world, don’t get me wrong. I love those boys more than cheesecake (painting you a picture here…that’s A LOT of love!).

Still, the guilt is there. The fear that if I don’t live a big life, I’ll die having never really mattered. Does that make sense or do I sound a little over the top?

It’s funny to think I grew up in the 90’s when there was no social media, thus a hell of a lot less pressure to be a big shot. Now, even taking a simple picture requires 10 shots and about 100 filters and a great caption. Thank God we don’t use film anymore!

The thing is, we all matter. Whether it’s to two people or twenty thousand people. We all serve many purposes here, not just one. Actually, life would be quite boring if the only reason for being here was to have a plan, fulfill one purpose, and then die.

So, to wrap this up, if you are reading this and maybe feeling these vibes, I just want to know that your life matters. Whether you are a mom and you have tiny humans relying on you, or whether you are a young, eager, success-driven, woman, you’re life matters. And right now the only thing that matters is this moment.

And in this moment my tiny human is shouting at me from the bathroom to go clip his toenails. How’s that for purpose? 😉

Don’t be so hard on yourself. You don’t have to have it all figured out in one day.

At least that’s what I keep telling myself. *kisses*

 

 

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I’ll Be Happier When I’m A Size 2

Many many years ago, before I had my kids, I was out shopping for new clothes and I came across this really nice pair of grey pinstriped pants. I quickly grabbed the last pair off the rack and headed towards the changing room area.

Much to my pleasure, they fit like a glove!

Up until that day my usual pant size ran at about size 5/6, depending on the brand. But when I checked the size on these pants I was surprised! Size 3. I was overjoyed. I had been working out a lot at the time so Imagine that played a big part!

The funny thing is that after the initial “overjoy” moment, I thought, “Now to get into a size 2!”

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I have never managed to actually get there. I can’t even get my leg into a size 2. Not happening. And guess what? It didn’t change a single thing about me or my life not being able to get one size smaller. But in my head I had thought that one size smaller would make me happier.

Here’s the thing, we often confuse happiness with excitement. That feeling we get with a new car, a bigger paycheck, a smaller dress size, another baby, a new job, a new house, ect. is more often than not, excitement. Because happiness has no semicolon.

Excitement is the feeling you get when a goal or milestone is reached. The feeling both kids and adults get when buying something new or going on a new adventure. And just as quickly as it spikes, excitement also dies fast and hard.

Happiness, on the other hand, doesn’t need anything to be felt.

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The truth is though, how many of us have said, I’ll be happier when…?

I’ll be happier when I upgrade my cell phone.
I’ll be happier when I have a new car.
I’ll be happier when I have a bigger place to live.
I’ll be happier when I get a pay raise.
I’ll be happier when I get promoted.
I’ll be happier when I reach a new rank.
I’ll be happier when my kids reach the fun age.
I’ll be happier when…
I’ll be happier when….
I’ll be happier when……

No you won’t.

And I’m not saying this because I’m some happiness guru. I’m saying this from experience. I’m saying this because I know a size 2 always ends with, maybe if I just get to a size 1.

A new home always ends with, we should go bigger.
A new car always ends with, I can’t wait for next years model!
And reaching goals & milestones always ends with making new ones.

I’m going to end this by making a point. Rather, a passing thought I had today.

You see, my “size 2” now has changed. I could care less about the size of my jeans. But my reputation, my purpose, is now my size 2.
Years and years ago I wanted a baby SO bad. Everytime I had unprotected sex I would think, this is it! And the day my period was expected to show and was a few hours late, I’d take a test…only to be let down so many times.
Then I had Ryver, my eldest, and I was one happy woman!! Only, a few months later, I wanted another baby.

See where I am going with this?

I thought working from home would make me happy, and when one company didn’t workout (mainly because I wasn’t dedicated), I would hop to another one.
I thought a cute selfie that got 50 likes online would make me happy, and when it happened, I thought, the next one’s gotta be better.

So, passing thought, I’m jumping around here, sorry. Today I thought, how would a big life make me happier?

And the truth is, its all a mirage. There is a reason why so many celebrities who ‘have it all’ are the ones who die of drug overdoses or suicide because of depression. Because having it all doesn’t make you happier. It makes you excited, for awhile. But not happier.

When you realize nothing is lacking, the whole world belongs to you. ~ Lao Tzu

Until next time,

Tanya ❤

 

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Figuring Out Who I Am

I have a question? Are you a fan of the TV Show, This Is Us?

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If not, you should be. 😛

In this week’s episode Kevin is talking to his niece, Tess, and they’re talking about the anxiety and fears that are often attached when you’re trying to figure out who you are as a person.

And then Kevin says, and this is what got me, “I don’t think we figure out exactly who we are all at once. I think it happens over a long period of time, like piece by piece.”

He continued: “Take me for instance: A couple years ago, I get close with your dad and I find a piece of myself. And then I meet your aunt and I find another piece of myself. I think that’s sorta how it works, you know? I think we go through this life slowly but surely, just collecting these little pieces of ourselves that we can’t really live without until eventually we have enough of them we feel whole.”

When I was a little girl I wanted to be a teacher. I loved kids! I begged to babysit every opportunity I had. And, get this, I wanted 26 kids of my own. (Imagine? My poor uterus!)

When I got older I wanted to sing. I don’t know if you’ve ever heard me sing but, in the brutally honest words of something Simon Cowell once said to a contestant, “Does God have a return policy? If He gave me that voice I’d give it back.

When I was finally old enough to work though, guess where I got my foot in the door? Restaurant work!

When I was born, I was immediately born into a family of Jehovah’s Witnesses.
When I was a pre-teenager my parents left the Witnesses and became Baptists (Christians). I spent all of my teen years as a Christian until this is what defined me.

As an early adult I began questioning what I believed in, who I was, what I wanted to do. My answer, after a lot of soul searching, was LOVE. That’s what was real to me. That I love others, love the Earth (my home), and love myself.

However, despite this awakening, I have still spent so many years now trying to figure it out. What my purpose is, what my calling is, what sets my soul on fire.

When I watched this episode of This Is Us and I heard what Kevin said, it made sense in such a real way!

Because maybe our lives are not supposed to be figured out. At least not all at once. Maybe the answers we’re looking for lie in each moment, in every risk we take, every friend we meet, & every memory we make.

There are no rules. You don’t have to have ONE job your whole life. You don’t have to like ONE flavor of ice cream. You don’t have to date the same person FOREVER if you’re unhappy. You don’t have to have all the answers in a fishbowl all at once.

And even if you do, even if you think you have figured out your life, you have a grand plan, you know what you love and who you are….the Universe can throw a stick in your path that will derail all of that and you’re back to square one.

So, moral is, just enjoy the ride. Enjoy the pieces. Enjoy that cup of coffee, that hug your child just gave you, the book you’re reading, your family & your friends.

Because at the end of the day, all these little things are telling your story and helping you figure out who you are and where you’re supposed to be.

~Tanya~

 

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What If I Don’t Have A Dream?

So I did a thing. Well, I bought a thing. The new Rachel Hollis book, Girl, Stop Apologizing. 

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When I ordered it I was excited! When it arrived in the mail yesterday, I was excited! But when I sat down to read it last night, I was…well I have some thoughts.

First of all, I do LOVE Rachel Hollis.

She reminds me of the version of myself had I remained a Christian.

I love her energy, her mom-vibe, & her writing.

What got me here, on my blog, has nothing to do with her but more to do with the subject and the basis of the book itself. Most books now. Well, almost all books.

I adore personal development. You just have to know that about me. I will never stop reading books on self-love, confidence, and being the best version of me. I’m cheesy but I love love love books like this.

The problem is that so many books now focus on how to be the best version of yourself as a _________________.

How to set big goals.
How to dream big.
How to be a better…
How to attract people on social media.

Basically, books on how to rise to the top. Books on how to make all your dreams come true while becoming a picture perfect version of yourself.

“So, what’s the problem?” you ask.

Well, what if you don’t have a dream? What if you still have no idea what it is you love to do or what you want to do? What if you simply are in a phase of your life where you just wanna be a better person without the big dreams, without the big goals, and without the stardom?

Or, WHAT IF *gasp* you are simply content without all of that stuff?

I’m not saying we shouldn’t want more. Life is huge and we should always stay curious and ambitious.

It just seems like there is so much out there about being a ‘Boss Babe’ but where are the books applauding women who not only choose but are happy living a simple life? Where are the books that say, “Don’t have a dream? That’s okay!” And why aren’t more women who are waitresses, nurses, desk clerks, stay at home moms, ect posting their “Boss Babe” selfies online?

When I was a little girl, my first recollection of a ‘dream’ was that I wanted to be a teacher when I grew up. I loved kids!

Another dream was that I wanted to be a singer. Unfortunately I was not gifted with a golden set of vocal chords and no matter how much I tried to sound like Britney Spears (I was young, leave me alone), it wasn’t happening.

I’ve signed up with a couple different work at home jobs as well thinking THAT was the dream. That I had finally found my purpose. And yet I sit here and write this, with a coffee next to me, after baking cookies with my son, and admit that I still don’t really know what the dream is.

I just know that I’m happy where my life is at in this current moment. I love being a stay at home mom, despite the amount of effort it sometimes requires. Despite hearing people’s, “Oh, just a stay at home mom? That’s…cool.

I’ll admit that I have cried a few tears over the last decade feeling like I wasn’t good enough yet. Like being a mom wasn’t enough. Like I had to be something bigger to be recognized, to have a fulfilled sense of purpose.

And so when I opened Rachel’s book last night I felt a sense of dread. A sense of, ‘ugh, not another ‘DREAM BIG’ book.’

Like I said, I love her and I know there is a BIG place for this subject right now because so many people, especially women, are working from home and making their marks. And that’s okay. Nothing wrong with it. I’ve done it and a lot of GOOD has come out of it.

I guess I am just at a place in my life where I need a book that praises living a simple life while continuing to grow & challenge myself as a person.

But until I find that book, I am going to leave you with this:

Wherever you are at in life, no matter how old or how young you are, just know that you can be happy even without a big dream. Happiness is not always found in success and success is not always defined the same by each person.

Your happy place is your happy place, wherever that looks like for you.

And maybe you discover your big dream someday or maybe you don’t. The only thing that matters is that you are happy and that you never lose your sense of curiosity.

Stay simple or dream big, just remember it’s your life, not theirs.

Tanya

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The Next Rachel Hollis

In this very moment I am sitting here anxiously awaiting the arrival of my 3 siblings who’ve decided to road trip it from PEI to come visit for the weekend.

I am ecstatic!!

I haven’t seen them since June of last year at my wedding.

So while I sit, impatiently, and wait…I decided to give this blog another go-at-it.

You see, yesterday I tried. I tried. I tried again. But I am not a patient person and the Virgo in me is a HUGE perfectionist, so there is A LOT of backspacing that goes on when I write.

So why bother with a blog?

Because I can’t shut my brain off!!! That’s why.

There are literally about six novels being written in my head on a daily basis.
Who’s an over-thinker?
I am!

Also, not saying I’m the next Rachel Hollis, but when I read her book I thought, “I could totally write this book.

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But like I said, I am super impatient and a perfectionist. So for now, all you fans out there get a blog 😉 You’re welcome.

Now that I’ve covered that, the BIG question is: what do I write about?

I could tell you about the time I was proposed to by a 70-year-old man. Not kidding. Real proposal.
I could tell you all the adventures I’ve had as a mom. (SO many poop stories!)
Or the time my minivan rear ended a 15-passenger van that was hauling the Three Days Grace band. True story.

I can get to those another time though (except the poop stories, I may leave those in the past).

Oh yay! Incoming text from the little sis….they are a few hours away 😀 Best-Friday-Ever!!

When I decided I wanted to blog again, well, I was actually inspired to do so while following my girl friend’s blog Let There Be Fight. She received some gut wrenching news and decided to blog about it every day. Real. Raw. Honest. Funny. Emotional.

It got me thinking about how we all have so much to share, so much to say, and yet we mostly hide behind our filtered pictures on social media. It’s gotten to a point that when someone shares the raw & real genuine stuff, it’s actually refreshing.

I currently have 423 friends on my Facebook and over 500 followers on Instagram. The number of people who actually know me? *Raises up 10 fingers*

So I’m blogging. Until I am patient enough to write an actual book, I’m opening up on here. I want people to know me. The real version, not just the girl in front of the snapchat filtered pictures who sells Avon and posts about her kids.

“The graveyard is the richest place on earth, because it is here that you will find many hopes and dreams that were never fulfilled, books that were never written, songs that were never sung, inventions that were never shared, cures that were never discovered, all because some people were too afraid to take that first step, keep with the problem, or determined to carry out their dream.”

It goes without saying that the graveyard is also the one place in the world filled with the most untold stories, wisdom, and knowledge.

If all I ever do is blog, so be it. But I’ll be damned if all people remember me by are my social media posts.

I’ve got a lot to say (six novels in my brain, baby!). I’ll be honest, I’ll be raw, I’ll share secrets, some stuff may even shock you. But I promise, I won’t be boring…and I will try really hard not to share my children’s poop stories.

Talk Soon,

Tanya

 

 

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